My Best Friend Made Me Do It

Wow, that really kicked some serious azz in the party realm that I have never experienced in my life!! I had no idea what I was in for!! After being in the "industry", I have no fear of flashing my ta-ta's, so I collected a good 3-5 pounds of beads. I kid you not! I took those suckers off and draped them on my knee-- then tried to lift my knee! It was hilarious.

First, my ol' buddy E and I went out for the first time in like 6-7 years on Friday, had a GREAT time, and we're doing it again this Friday too! Holler!! We adopted a bartender who likes to keep the glasses full. GOTTA LOVE IT!!! So we tanked ourselves nicely and I got up Saturday and did it all over again.....

Not only did I score big time on the beads, but I got --get ready for this-- I got a COAT!! Unbelievable! Okay, so I'm standing there in my T-shirt since I was running around at 2pm when it wasn't cold yet, so I took my windbreaker off and tied it around my waist. Well, some guy comes up to me and says that I look cold, and he's tired of carrying around his jacket. I looked so dumbfounded at him, and asked where he would be so I could give it back when I went inside somewhere. He insisted that I keep it, so after I thoroughly checked the lining and pockets for illegal contraband, I grinned, said thank you, and went on my merry way! It's a heavy pleather, looking and feeling seriously close to real leather, double breasted, with a very warm fleece lining. Wow, who woulda thunk it....

What else........ oh, yeah, got desperately in need of a bathroom, so when the porta potties were packed, I got innovative and (yes, I really did this) had my friends surround me while I peed in an empty cup!! And folks, I was still pretty sober at this point, so you know I had to go BAAAAAAAAD! It was crazy out there, so people had to resort to desperate measures. I think I was pretty skilled, since I don't have the "hose" that you men out there are blessed with when you need to conveniently pee ANYWHERE. (sheesh! Only reason I sometimes wish I had one!) Peed in some guy's yard too........ (giggle)

Also met the cutest girl I've seen since my former g-friend, and she remembered meeting me briefly on Thursday when I gave her a flower. (Okay, background: another girl's girlfriend gave me a rose when her g-friend went to the other side of the bar. Not cool at all, but hey, I got the rose and sent her on her merry-rude-azz way). Anyway, so I wanted to give it to someone, and this adorable girl who danced with me was most deserving. So when I saw her at Mardi Gras on Saturday, she actually remembered me and reminded me that she still had the rose! You know, I still may be injured after M's rejection, but it sure is nice to be acknowledged by a cute girl who I'm attracted to. I got cute kisses from her too! I'm fine with keeping it there for now, since I'm still so in the "vault", but little by little it just feels nice. I may have been rejected but I don't have to keep feeling socially worthless. So D is really nice, and hopefully I'll have more stories about her soon. She's a bit young (I don't' know exactly how young, and I'm afraid to ask), but she is legal, and she seems pretty level and secure with herself. Obviously, I'm not looking for a future here, just a nice little casual dating experience or just hanging out. I hung out with her just sitting around her apartment with her friend Tiffany, listening to music and laughing and eating McDonalds. It was great! That's exactly what I need. Then a tiny kiss from her soft lips at the end of the night.... perfect. I don't need any more than that right now to set me on a tiny little cloud-- since it's been so long since I've even known clouds.

So maybe there's hope............. :)

Well, I'm out, gotta go back to bed. Working the 6am to 6pm shift tomorrow. UGH. Feel sorry for me now. :P

Peace.

Happy unimaginative, consumerist-oriented, and entirely arbitrary, manipulative & shallow interpretation of romance day

That's all I have to say for Saturday, and I must give thanks to Chasmyn, for finding those true true words.

Okay, so here is my little update: I need a new therapist, I need to up my medication, having more panic attacks, hate going through life (not life itself, mind you, just the sh*&t it's throwing right now), depressed 24/7, cry at everything, either eat everything in sight or don't eat at all, feel worthless, and...... hmm..... let's see, was there anything else? .......oh yeah, and my bank balance is $1.87.

Yeah, well, that's what this whole blog-thing is for, right? Who else am I going to tell this crap to? Any live person would ask if I need any help shopping for the hats, horns, and streamers to get ready for my pity party. Far from the point of my venting, of course, which is why I write/type instead of speak my issues.

I don't have anything happy to talk about right now, so I'm going to stop talking.

Peace.

You know, I have to pick at least one show every season that will cause hives and hyperventilation if I can't watch it. I know, I'm a freak. I'm not a huge TV watcher at all, so I just have to pick one. I'm only a true veg when I have cable and can totally zone out to Animal Planet and TLC. If they had a package where I could only purchase the geek channels, I would SO do it! I usually just watch a bunch of DVD's that I have (over and over and over...) when I feel like turning on the tube. Network channels make me itch most of the time. --Ok, I'm lying to you: I like ER and Will & Grace, but that's it. :)

So anyway, yes, my guilty pleasure this season is, of course (although many of you out there are gagging --it will be okay, I promise. Just breathe) American Idol. I have watched it from the beginning, and I have become so involved that I have actually (not sure that I should be admitting this) kept notes on the contestants in the finals and compared my picks to the end results. And of course, you know I have to acknowledge that us "family" folks have a contestant that is totally REPRESENTIN'!! Yes, I'm referring to the gorgeous, talented, and truly REAL, Briana Ramirez-Rial! I will be counting the hours until next Tuesday when we get to see her perform. Holler!!

Okay, but my pick from this first round of finals was totally Diana DeGarmo. I think the girl has that round wrapped around her little finger, and she is going to give the folks from the other group a ton of competition. She is cute, expressive, and that VOICE!! I never thought that voice would come out of that li'l bit! She totally has my support as well. Everybody is talking about Fantasia, but I personally was not crazy about her voice. I think she has talent and gobs of personality, but the sound of her voice is just not appealing to me at all. 'Dat's just my opinion.

Ok, now that I've started this expression about what I watch, I have to share my weird side: I'm a total sucker for sci-fi, paranormal horror, and action (okay, so you already know about the delightfully-unrealistic-action-eye-candy movies). Why am I talking about this? Cuz, um, this is my blog, and I can say whatever I wanna. Whoo, that's refreshing!! (I'm getting into this now)

Anyway, my current favorites that I can't get enough of lately are: The Fifth Element, The Ring, Signs, The Mummy & Mummy Returns, The Scorpion King, Gladiator, XXX, and, saving the best for last, the ENTIRE Alien quadrilogy. The Alien series is by far my favorite set of movies of all time. Like I said, I know I'm a freak. But I don't care. I love the stuff! :D I am very picky about drama movies because I'm a horrible sap and cry at everything. Here's a good example (not really fair because I have been so depressed lately, but it's still kind of funny) of how easy I am: In Legally Blonde-II, when Elle was at the Lincoln Memorial and her friends came up with the snap cap and told her there was "extra fuzz", I lost it. Pitiful, eh? Yeah, pitiful but laughable. Now, mind you, I have teared up at very legitimate dramas like Philadelphia, What's Eating Gilbert Grape, What Dreams May Come, Rain Man, and A.I., but you never know when a kitten will walk across the scene and I'm history. Okay, just kidding, maybe not that bad.... sometimes. :P

Okay, enough for tonight, I'm rambling. I suppose that's a good sign so I can get used to this blog-thing. Oh, and by the way, in case anyone didn't catch the line at the top of my blog, it's from one of my favorite war movies, Full Metal Jacket (scene: Private Pyle, in the head (bathroom) with his rifle, right before he blew his head off). *sigh* I'm spent. Goin to bed.

Peace.

Hey there, I'm still alive, just new at this whole blog thing. I haven't kept even a regular diary in decades, so you can imagine how diligent I am about this (NOT!) :P

Anyway, let's see.... what's happened since my last blog..... okay, well, I'm still depressed and very much in the space of "f*&% Valentine's Day". Yeah, I'm a little depressed, a little sad, a little bitter, and a little bruised. One day I'll get over myself and move on, but until then, oh well, everyone gets to choose for themselves to be in this space sometimes.

I went to see the movie "Torque" last week and it rocks, in my opinion. Then again, I am a BIG sucker for delightfully unrealistic stunts, regardless of the lack of acting/story. I'm all about the eye candy!! (So I'm sure you can guess that one of my favorites is XXX. Oh yeeeeeeeah!!!) Okay, so on the upside of my life, it was a good time enjoying the nonsense and adrenaline for a couple of hours. All I gotta say is..... I HAVE TO HAVE ONE!!! (yes, that's the kid in me talking) And see, my objective for wanting a bike doesn't have anything to do with speed, since I have no desire to wipe the road with myself. They just look incredibly cool and it give a different "on the edge" feeling while using one of them for transportation, much different than actually being INSIDE the vehicle. Wow, being on a bike is just a great feeling, I can't explain it, but those bikers out there know what I'm talking about. ..... so um... there, one of my little immature desires... :P

So there's the topic of the day kids. Enjoy.

Peace.