My Best Friend Made Me Do It

I never thought it would happen to me but it did.

You've read it before: I thought that love sucked for me. I thought it was the stupidest idea in the world. In the famous words of SEAL, "Life is hard in a whirlpool. Especially when you think you've gone insane, and all you get from love is lots of pain. I should have known better." I always told myself that I should have known better not to let the guard down, and not to give so much of myself. Wow!! I even swore that I was destined for a life of solitude, not necessarily in a bad way, because I would do things that I enjoy and I would still have my friends. But there was always something that told me that I would never find what other people around me found. And now I have. :)

I am still shaking, I am still stuttering, and M and I keep looking at each other saying, "We REALLY did that, didn't we?!!" I actually have a fiancee. I am actually going to be a WIFE!! I am actually going to HAVE a wife!! HOLY SH*T!!! :D

WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I have literally finally found the love of my life. Now I see what people mean when they say that. I have just never known it until now. I thank goddess that I do, and thank goddess for M. :) I can actually smile again, and I can actually love again. Never thought it possible. YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Peace,
Nia

Okay, so I was gonna blog tonight, but it may have to wait until tomorrow or Tuesday. I'm so sleepy I'll end up rambling about sweat socks or pomegranates (sp?). More later.

Peace,
Nia

I know, I know, I'm in trouble. Scold away. Sorry about that, y'all. I have been in the world of corporate slavery and it's getting to me so bad that I tend to come home and go directly to bed, get up at 10 or so, eat, and go back to bed. I have been on this 'puter maybe 5 times since my last post, and that was to record my time-card or do a quick email check.

Anyhoo, I'm back, and I'm bloggin'! :)

Where was I before?.......... Ah yes, Mardi Gras shenanigans. That was awesome! So much has happened since then. Okay, maybe not the corporate slavery part *blech*. Still waiting for my horse trainer to get back in town so I can get back into my element. I'm freakin' out, too!! I'm suffering from major equine-withdrawal!! Gotta hang in there for now, tho.

On the up-side, (and Miss Chasmyn already knows this) I have been re-united with a grade school friend from TWENTY years ago! Dear Chasmyn was responsible for this meeting, and a whole new relationship has blossomed. MJ is adorable and OUT, and not only do we sit up all night with the yearbooks from grade school and act like total goofs together, we have discovered a wonderful chemistry. So I have been spending quite a bit of time with her, and allowing myself to feel again. Allowing myself to love again. It's a gradual process, and I still have to do some "spring cleaning", if you will, with the ol' emotional baggage, but it's a good thing that we've found. I see potential, and I feel so much warmth, friendship, comfort and intimacy on many levels. It's a bit scary, but in a good way. I'm not running away, and neither is she. She has a lot of patience with my broken-azz, and I appreciate that so much. We're taking the relationship at a good pace, and constantly communicating. *smile/sigh* So, I'll keep ya updated on that one!!

YAY, FINALLY SOME GOOD NEWS!! HOLLER!!

I actually think I'm gonna make it. :)

Mo' later.

PEACE
~Nia