Wednesday, October 27, 2004
The word for the day is: POO
Hi. So today was the 8 month anniversary of my relationship, and also my mother's birthday. Yesterday was the 4 month anniversary of my commitment ceremony. I am elated about all of those things, and I love my mother and my MJ dearly. I also love my job, although it is not as lucrative as I would like for it to be.
On the darker side of things, I'm losing it. I am mostly up, up and more up with my co-workers (if you can call them that), like I'm just always happy or something, mainly because I am happy when I'm there. I'm happy with most of my days, but I get caught in the "holes" of my emotions and uncontrollable mental state. I am really in the pit most of the time I'm alone. I actually even feel guilty for writing this stuff because I should have good news to report (which I already did), and cool, happy things to talk about. But I don't really give a crap right now, and I'm not afraid to say it. Just feel like venting for the heck of it. There ya go.
I was reading some blogs today and started to feel stupid. I am no poet, by any means, and I started to feel like many things I post about are so trivial, and start to sound (to me) like the Charlie Brown teacher: "Woh, wah, wo-wa, woh, woh, waaaaah." Now I know why I never update this thing.... because I only update when I feel positive. I only update when the moment strikes or something really cool happens.
Okay, so I started this thing when I was going through a horrible breakup, and reading back about that makes me cringe. But I didn't really have many outlets for my feelings, and I felt like "what the heck". Gee, you ask, so why are you updating now? Cuz I'm having one of those "crab session, don't give a crap" moments.
Oh well, so I'm rambling about ...... hmmm... really nothing. Screw it. I'm going to bed. *sigh*
Aww, POO.
THERE YA HAVE IT, FOLKS!! THANK YOU FOR JOINING THE PITY PARTY OF THE EVENING!! HOPE YOU ENJOY THE ROLLING OF YOUR EYES AND THE QUICK CLOSING OF YOUR BROWSERS!!! ---I'll be here all week... be sure to tip your servers.
On the darker side of things, I'm losing it. I am mostly up, up and more up with my co-workers (if you can call them that), like I'm just always happy or something, mainly because I am happy when I'm there. I'm happy with most of my days, but I get caught in the "holes" of my emotions and uncontrollable mental state. I am really in the pit most of the time I'm alone. I actually even feel guilty for writing this stuff because I should have good news to report (which I already did), and cool, happy things to talk about. But I don't really give a crap right now, and I'm not afraid to say it. Just feel like venting for the heck of it. There ya go.
I was reading some blogs today and started to feel stupid. I am no poet, by any means, and I started to feel like many things I post about are so trivial, and start to sound (to me) like the Charlie Brown teacher: "Woh, wah, wo-wa, woh, woh, waaaaah." Now I know why I never update this thing.... because I only update when I feel positive. I only update when the moment strikes or something really cool happens.
Okay, so I started this thing when I was going through a horrible breakup, and reading back about that makes me cringe. But I didn't really have many outlets for my feelings, and I felt like "what the heck". Gee, you ask, so why are you updating now? Cuz I'm having one of those "crab session, don't give a crap" moments.
Oh well, so I'm rambling about ...... hmmm... really nothing. Screw it. I'm going to bed. *sigh*
Aww, POO.
THERE YA HAVE IT, FOLKS!! THANK YOU FOR JOINING THE PITY PARTY OF THE EVENING!! HOPE YOU ENJOY THE ROLLING OF YOUR EYES AND THE QUICK CLOSING OF YOUR BROWSERS!!! ---I'll be here all week... be sure to tip your servers.
Tuesday, October 05, 2004
As I'm figuring out how these pics are done, here is one of my pud, Woody. He sleeps on my bed with me and has his own pillow. When I come home, he meows and it sounds like, "hello-ow". :-)
